i might as well post this here as i dont know where to post it cuz nobody will read it....(thinks for a moment) wait nobody will proberly not read it here either O_O oh well
first off im going to have a operation as i have a abcess (think thats how its spelt) just inches away from my tail bone, 3 inches deep and 2 inches going up my back so now i need a operation with stiches and everything, not looking forward to it plus im nervous as hell.
Second i might aswell say i have left the road rovers fandom as im too busy to do any pics or fics, the last fic i wrote over 2 yrs ago and the fandom is dead as a dodo i even left dyls forum and posted a goodbye there as there was only 4 of us posting there (not good is it :P ). if your wondering how im busy its cuz of work and real life stuff like me spending time with my family like my baby niece who is 7 months old (yes im a uncle now, oops i forgot to say :P ), xbox live too as i have quite a few freinds on there and im busy chatting and adding to my gamerscore while i co op in games.
now what else erm...oh yeah im sorry to people on my msn like marauder, wesley, kyle and quite a few other names as i dont come online much and chat (although my xbox does log onto msn, but it is hard to chat on there when your playing games) it makes me sad when i think about that as i do miss RPing with big groups of us from the RR fandom (plus i aint heard marauder call me his bro in ages as he was like my msn bro) like CD and all the others.
Also i feel down and depressed for alot of reasons and in all ....(sigh) i dont know how to put this i just feel like i never belonged from the start and i still do everywhere i go like FA, here and everywhere which is why i travel the internet alot. But i must say i did find a new forum on the internet where i visit alot now thanks to theo (who is one of the 4 of the active members of dyls forum) which i kinda call my internet home.
well anyway thats my post, im done i guess with LJ now as i bet nobody will read this and dont see the need for it, i will keep this journal and if i remember i will visit to check up on you guys
As the title says i got em all. At the moment i'm off work with stress due to the mangers putting pressure on me and stuff, plus of added depression due to me help careing for my grandma due to alzhiemers disease, which really upsets me to see her like that as she did alot for all of us with a kind and loving heart. And now to top it off i think i caught flu, so i sit here feeling like shit typing this :( i hope i see a silver lining soon.
lately ive been thinking about my fics and people i havn't spoken too in ages, im sorry for not coming online and talking to people and sorry for the tiny fraction of people who care about my fics. Im just trying to get that spark back to contuing my stories .
So i will try and not stand in the shadows anymore ........
yes people i aint dead yet, just got back from holiday yesterday so i'm just getting used to being home so i hope to be online soon, thats if anyone cares ~shrugs~.
Also I want to send my prays to kyle as his dog kody has pasted away :(
well last night was the stag due and boy did i get pissed. We did a pub run around town and on the last pub it hit me bad as i went and puked outside >_<
Then we went to the casino but i only made it to the reception desk before spewing my guts all over the floor, nice :P
So thats when i drawed the line and went home in a taxi, stopping now and then to relive myself with....more puking :P
But it was fun and i had a great time, maybe next time i should get more than 4 hours sleep before going out hehe, but i lasted quite long as we started at 7:30 pm and i gave up at 1:00 am ... a NEW RECORD, maybe i could get another for the furthest puke hmmmm nah maybe not 8)
well i have been trying to draw some comics lately, i drew one ages ago but only a few people have seen it. It was hand drawn so it had to be scanned and it didn't have colour, but i was lazy to colour it so it never got posted.
But i have been thinking of posting it but everytime i see it i dont like it due to the fact it looks crappy, but here is some other news....i have decided to try and draw some on the comp in the next week or so , keep em peeled.
well lately work has been getting me down and last night was bad as i was the only one in my section so i had to do all the work >_<. Also i have been feeling depressed inside for no reason and i feel like shit.
to top it off i think i lost a freind on my freinds list but for reason unknown to me, which makes me feel better.....NOT!
Also one of my managers at work embaressed me in front of some other workers for doing my job, he just seen me and thought "lets tease chris". He is a stupid fat cunt, he hasnt seen his penis in years so he declared it missing and presumed dead!
well im gonna lay here before i go work, bye (slomps on the bed quiet)
yay i finally bought it, well i actually bought it last week but i couldn't be arsed to post about it till now. Man there is so much to do on it, play scenario's, missions and itmes to buy. On the missions they go up from pactice- s rank, so far im half way through the c rank missions and i am at chunin rank myself.
Last night i unlocked curse marked sasuke, just need nine tailed fox naruto now ^_^ and then i have all the chars for the game.
heres a viseo of it i found on youtube "sasuke VS naruto" (note: i didn't make this video)
well first things first, i'm very ill as i couldn't get out of bed yesterday and last night my throat was burning and i couldn't speak :(. so i have had some days off work, i made a new video for road rovers (its below) before i got ill.
I made a test on this quiz site so if you wanna go here is the link http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=070402130601-561981& (note if it dont work, copy and paste it in the url address box) it will also have my final answer to that question "am i gonna stay in the Road Rover fandom"
at the moment i am debating about staying in the road rover fandom as i'm starting to feel distant from the fandom amd have started to do other things. It is getting to the point where i wont hardly do anything in the famdom soon as i am busy with RL issues and work, plus my RR site dont get many hits so i feel my hard work is going to waste, plus i aint wrote a fic since august 2006.
so i created "gamertracks" as it holds my hobbies of making videos, talk about computer games, manga and my art. Also i only get a few people asking to draw pics and then i dont deliver as im out doing what i do best, playing comp games and meeting family so i end up hurting peoples feelings by not drawing.
To cut a long story short i dont know if i'm gonna continue with my RR site as i havenet spoke to anybody i met in the fandom for ages now
well i finally updated my site at www.freewebs.com/gamertrack withsome new pages and stuff, but i'm gonna need some of your help as i'm gonna make a page were people will learn a bit about me and i was wondering if you could ask me some questions here about me and i will make it on my page. it can be about anyting but nothing rude :P
and when its done i will add your names with your question to me site and my answers, but doing it here first will give a chance to check it over ^_^
Well lately i aint been online as i have been been playing on loads of computer games LOL, i dont have much skills but i must say i'm a kickass gamer :P.
i was bored yesterday as i completed "legend of zelda: twilight princess" on monday so i bought "final fantasy 12" yay. i will get my rear in gear and update "gamer tracks" with hints and tips for zelda when i can but now, more gaming.
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